So I work at a laundromat, and he did his laundry there. That was over a year ago, and now we are dating. At first I never took notice of Darnell he was just like any other customer to me. Then one day he looks at me and say I don't mean any harm but you are the most beautiful women I have ever seen. My breath caught, and all I could do was smile and walk away.
Men tell me i'm beautiful all the time, but this is the first time it has an impact on me. It was like he was looking at my inner beauty. After that day I couldn't wait to see him again, but months past by with no sign of him. Then one day he was there. I sat down to talk to him which was really easy because he was doing something that I love which was reading.
After that he started coming to the laundromat more and more. Eventually I noticed he was coming with no laundry. He was just coming to see me. I wanted to see him all the time. My feeling for Darnell didn't become difficult until I found out how old he was, and I just recently found that out a couple of weeks ago after over a year of knowing him.
So he just turned 48 and I am a very young looking 24. One girl at work asked me how old I was today because she thought I was 16 and way to young to run a laundromat by myself. I want to be married and have kids, and although I can't be sure how long Darnell will live I worry about it. What if all I have with him is a 20 year marriage, and my children only have a 19 or 18 year relationship with their father? If he passes away in 20 years I will be almost 50 and I just might spend the rest of my life alone.
Sunday, November 10, 2013
The First Date!
So yesterday we had our first date. I can't say i'm surprised that it was different from any other date I have ever had. Most guys my age take me to the movies and out to eat, and even men in their early 30's that I have dated in the past have done the same. Well Darnell didn't do any of that he took me to the river, and it was very chilly outside last night especially on the water so he made sure to bring an extra heavy coat for me. Shockingly I have never been to the James River before then and it was so pretty seeing the city skyline in the distance and the moon reflecting on the water as it rippled.
While we stood there watching the water flow past us he put his arms around me to make sure I was warm. Of coarse a lot of our conversation last night revolved around our age difference, and how we could get past it. Well he is past the age difference. He's ready for marriage and babies. It's me that has the cold feet. So many people trying to make my decision for me. I try to ignore them but they make it so very hard for me.
Just today my mom told me older men are great the first couple of months and then they want to control everything you do. Then she followed that up by telling me my first mistake was going out on a date with him. Some added pressure I have is that Darnell is studying to be a pastor he will eventually be in the church and I am a person who believes in god so that part is fine, but I feel as if my age could affect him badly in some way even though he says it will not. The rest of the date we set in the car talking about his past relationships. One of his ex girlfriends actually tried to kill him by hitting his car going 70mph. I don't know what to do with him yet so i am taking it one day at a time so i will keep you posted.
While we stood there watching the water flow past us he put his arms around me to make sure I was warm. Of coarse a lot of our conversation last night revolved around our age difference, and how we could get past it. Well he is past the age difference. He's ready for marriage and babies. It's me that has the cold feet. So many people trying to make my decision for me. I try to ignore them but they make it so very hard for me.
Just today my mom told me older men are great the first couple of months and then they want to control everything you do. Then she followed that up by telling me my first mistake was going out on a date with him. Some added pressure I have is that Darnell is studying to be a pastor he will eventually be in the church and I am a person who believes in god so that part is fine, but I feel as if my age could affect him badly in some way even though he says it will not. The rest of the date we set in the car talking about his past relationships. One of his ex girlfriends actually tried to kill him by hitting his car going 70mph. I don't know what to do with him yet so i am taking it one day at a time so i will keep you posted.
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